A definition from WordNet

Noun

• S: (n) despair, desperation (a state in which all hope is lost or absent) “in the depths of despair”; “they were rescued from despair at the last minute”; “courage born of desperation”
• S: (n) despair (the feeling that everything is wrong and nothing will turn out well) “they moaned in despair and dismay”; “one harsh word would send her into the depths of despair”

Verb

• S: (v) despair (abandon hope; give up hope; lose heart) “Don’t despair–help is on the way!”

This is me. Despair I am a fairly happy person. Until something happens that pertains to me. I don’t like being center of attention, I do not like mirrors, I do not like clothing stores, I do not like shoe stores, I do not like going to my children’s school. I know that I have no right to put the word despair next to my name, because God has given me a lot, and he has helped me a lot. Why do I feel like this? I feel miserable. Literally. I know it is more than my allergies, my body is sick and I think it is my weight, yet I eat and eat. Not that I eat out of boredom, but I stay HUNGRY, why? I feel so bad, I mean worthless, or in other words “In Despair”……

How can I overcome this? I don’t want a pitty party or anything, I just want some help, some advice, from women that are going through the same thing. Not from people that think they know how I feel. GAH, I am so ready to feel better…..

Ok, enough of the desperation….

-Angela