Best Friend, what the hell is that? Does anyone really know? Why do people even say they are your best friend when they don’t even know what the hell a best friend is. I truly think that there is only one Best Friend you can ever have and that is God. He doesn’t judge you, he loves you unconditionally. He doesn’t lie to you, h is the one true Best Friend.
To all the others, it’s friend and if you are lucky its a Good friend.
-Angela
Well tomorrow is the CAT scan for a 5 year follow up from me having Hodgkin’s Lymphoma. I am extremely nervous. Not about the CAT scan, thats the easy part, but I am nervous for the 22nd, thats when Dr. Thomas will read the results. I will either get to say its back, or I am in full remission. I’m skeered…lol…
Tonight I have to drink 1 bottle of Creamy Raspberry Berium (oh yummy), and no food after Midnight. Tomorrow I have to be at the Hospital at 7:30 am. Drink half of the other bottle of Berium at 8:00 and the other half at 8:30 am, then the scan is at 9:00 am… UGH..
I also start my diet and exercise journey (for the millionth time) I gotta do it, Dr says I need to lose at least 125 lbs. He said that with me having cancer before, I have a higher rate to get other cancers and losing weight will help deter alot of the “female” cancers. So, now the weight loss is getting more and more life and death, so I choose life… 
So, wish me luck, and talk to you soon…
-Angela
Well it has been a while since I have written. I don’t think it is that I have not had time, I just haven’t thought about it. My life is ok, not the best and not the worst. My body hurts, I am gaining weight again, and my joints are hating my guts… I just don’t know what to do. I know I have said before that I am an addict, but I just dont think people understand the severity of my food addiction. Food is my drug. I use when I am tired, I use when I am upset, I use when Im angry, I use when I am anxious… I use… I can be completely full and about 10 mins later I am looking for something else to eat. I seriously feel the hunger pains.. Soon as I can get insurance or something I am going to go to the doctor to see if it is mental or what. I am sorry for rambling, but that is the purpose of the blog aka Diar, to say what I feel. Anywho, I hope you all are doing well safe, sound and healthy…
Love, Light and Laughter…
-Angela 
Now wether I can keep these or not, here they are. Here are a few things I want to do or keep up for the bright fresh new year….lol..
1. Quit Smoking, and stay quit.
2. Start an exercise plan, and stick with it.
3. Start drawing more, and don’t throw anything away!
4. Finish my websites, and have full content in there.
5. Talk to my friends on social networks and messengers more!
6. Say one good thing about myself each day.
7. Make plans and follow through with them, with my girls.
8. Make sure my girls know that I love them more than anything, everyday.
9. Set a clean house day, and clean all day long. No excuses.. (but keep it picked up through out the week…lol)
10. FIND MY MOTHER A MAN………lmao
Happy New Year everyone…. I hope you have a safe, happy , healthy and prosperous 2009!
-Angela:-)
Tomorrow is the day. My quit smoke day, and I am so nervous! I don’t care how bad I want them, I am done…. I have waited for this day for about 2 months. I’m not going to lie, I am scared to death. I don’t know how I am going to handle this, but I am going to handle it. I just hope that my family understands and I don’t make them to miserable through the process!…lol…
Also, on January 1, 2009 will be the beginning of my new life. I am ready to make myself healthier. It’s time. I need to quit being lazy, and just do it. I have to be here for my kids…. I cannot let them down by getting diabetes and dying, getting so big that my heart can’t take it and have a heart attack, plus smoking…. That all equals DEATH… I cannot die on them. I have to see them live, and I want to see my grandkids (when the time comes)..
I have to make it. I cannot give up, I just can’t…
Ok, I’m done with that…
Love, Light and Laughter…
Angela 
To start off I am so damn excited. I opened my first website in 2002 and she was named midnightgraphx.com. In 2004 I was low on money and I couldn’t renew my hosting and my name went dead. Well, I tried a few months later to get it back and someone had purchased the name. I tried to contact the new owner and he wanted $1000.00 for the name, I politely told him to go screw himself. So every year since that I have been watching the whois to see if the person renewed it. Low and behold he renewed it every year. Well I was on my domain name provider and I was looking up names and I thought what the hell, I was going to see how much longer the guy renewed it for….. AHHHHH It was FREE!!!!! My mom paid for me to get my name back for $9.15… So, now that you know that I will tell you about my big leap…
As most of you know, I have been too chicken to sell any of my original art work. The only person outside of family to own something I have drawn (not including the dolls I drew for a few people) but my work is Stephie. I am terrified to try to sell my art work. I mean petrified. So my mom, and my husband have finally pushed me to no end. Like threatening me and stuff… So……. Here goes…. I am going to put up a shop on my http://www.midnightgraphx.com and sell my originals. I will make 2 copies of the originals I decide to sell. I will frame them all and I will sell the original, a print and put a print up at the shop my mother and I have opened… I will do some on ebay and some on my website.
I am terrified of someone telling me that my stuff is not worth selling, so if anyone thinks I should not do this please let me know. So what I am going to do, is try it for a year. I will not give up for a year. Then I will see what has happened. If there are no interests or no purchases, I will close her down for good, and I will not put my art up again. I know that sounds harsh, but I can’t take it. It has took me like 20 years to decide to do anything like this. Argh…. my nerves are shot.
I have to do something. There are no jobs here other than fast food, and I can’t work in fast food. Not that I cannot do the jobs, I can, but I can’t stand the grease smell… UGH…
Please, Please, give me some input. Let me know what you think. I will have the art up hopefully by the end of the first week in January… I am begging you, tell me if you think I should do this or not….
Ok, Im done…
Angela
OK folks, at 1:00 pm today, eastern time I will officially become old.. I will be trading in my cute little fern green 97′ Plymouth Breeze with killer 18″ Speakers, to a, ummm, sniff……. MINIVAN!!!!! I have to admit, its nice and can hold my family comfortably compared to squished like sardines…lol.. I found a picture online to what it looks like, I haven’t taken pictures yet. I got a really good deal from my hubbys boss. I trade my car in and 1,300.00 and I do not have to start paying till January 2009, (whew!). Remember this picture is not my actual van, but it is similar.
Introducing the 1999 Plymouth Grand Voyager Se (aka big white bus)
And this is an image of what my little cute not so old car looks like. Again, this is not my car, I borrowed it on the internet. This is an awkward angle, but it is the color and the same year. It’s really cute in person…lol..
I will eventually get over it, because between you and I, the van is so much more comfortable for the family, and I can spread the three girls out, so that means no more “MOM!!!! She’s TOUCHING ME”…….hahaha, I welcome that any day. So when I get the van fixed up like I want it, I will post pictures of my actual van..
Humpfh… Cool artist type mom, to Seasoned, Old, She used to be an artist mom…lol
Have a good one,
Tag By Stephie, TY Stephie!
Man that was a good one tonight! I absolutely loved it. I love the emotion in the show, and the writers are brilliant. I do miss season 3 for some reason though. Maybe it was because of the break and the writers strike. I hope that doesn’t happen again soon, however I do agree that if it wasn’t for the writers, we wouldn’t have good shows like that.
I am not a homophobe or anything, but same sex kissing and sex well, I’m not comfortable with that yet. I do love gay men though, they are wonderful, but tonight, the writers wrote a gay military couple in the script that was so emotional, and that kiss they shared was unbelieveable. It didn’t make me uncomfortable at all, I actually felt the love that the characters had. It was a beautiful kiss, I don’t think I have had a kiss like that in a long time. So Kudos to you GA writers, you did a fantastic job tonight!
-Angela
Current Mood:
This has got to be the sweetest and emotional thing I have seen in a while. I saw the link on a good friend of mine’s msn (Lyle) and thought I would look, cuz I’m nosy like that. Well, it’s something I needed…lol… Please take the time to watch, you won’t be disappointed.
Love, Light and Laughter…
-Angela
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